This last year the old dancing life has really been on the back burner. I’ve still taken lessons every week and done the odd coaching and showcase number, but I haven’t really put a lot of focus in it. Not to over analyze, but I was/am struggling. I definitely feel like my dancing has gotten somewhat stagnant. It’s gotta be my attitude … or feeling lost somehow … or just struggling to connect. I love dancing so much, but I feel like I was in dance wasteland. I didn’t feel like my teacher was interested in pushing my dance either. I thought about quitting many times over the last two years. But, I didn’t. I kept showing up each week and trying … perhaps not as hard as I could, but I still showed up.
My business has gotten all time consuming and I really struggled to see how my dancing could fit in with my future. I can’t afford to take 20 lessons a week and compete every month. But, why take my 3 lessons a week to improve competition kind of technique just for social dancing? (When I don’t do a whole lot of that anyway.)
I realize I haven’t posted on here in a very long time either … there just didn’t seem like anything to say of consequence.
So, the back burner is starting to get warm? Yeah, I think so. I feel like I’ve got to start making my own goals with dancing. I had a heart to heart talk with my sister today and I realized several things about myself and I think it translates to dancing. First of all, it does feel a bit cathartic to say out loud how bad the last two years have been. Second, I have to change things about myself personally before I can change my dancing. Third, I’m really glad I just kept showing up to lessons the last few years even though I wasn’t feeling it. There are seasons in life … ups and downs. It’s time for me to start climbing up out of this funk.
… and scene.